"break our hearts for what breaks Yours"

i keep finding

out more and more

things about

life that i just

hate.

and i wish i could

change,

but it seems hopeless.

of course it's not;

but it seems 

too big

and too awful

to ever be conquered.

firstly: 

did you know that 

much of the world's 

coca production 

is harvested by 

child laborers in 

Africa and Central/South America?

and in our own country

craigs list 

has been found

to be one the most 

efficient, effective (and free) 

ways to post children and women

for sale?

and an update email

from my friend Mari

in Peru who finds young

prostitue girls on the street,

and tries to get them into schools or jobs.

she wrote me yesterday

to tell me of jesi.

one of mari's girls who's parents forced her

into prostitution.

she was found this week,

raped and murdered

by just one of the many men who 

used her. 

she had a baby daughter.

she was 14.

and i just have to cry. 

i'm overwhelmed.

i don't know where my Jesus 

is in all this mess.

but i know he is there.

and i want to trust that 

he knows what he's doing.

but honestly,

i really don't like it.

here's a picture of me and jesi: