i'm just not sure

how well this plan

was thought out.

well really,

it wasn't thought

out at all.

it just is.

and i think

i can be 

honest with you

because i feel

certain that 

all of you have 

felt something

akin to this

at one point

or another.

i'm almost

halfway

through this

pregnancy,

and i have to say

i'm still not 

really sure about this.

i go back and forth

a lot.

basically,

i wake up every morning

thinking 

"there is no way

i can do this"

and then by the time 

i go to bed

i'm thinking

"how exciting! a baby!"

so really.

i'm sure it will 

be fine

and wonderful

and i'm just 

kind of a worrier.

but i'm sharing

because that's what i do,

and isn't that 

why you read

anyway?

on another note,

i've really

been enjoying the rain.

i usually don't.

i love summer,

and i'm always 

so sad to see it go.

i dread the cold

and the rain.

but somehow,

this year 

i'm loving it!

it's cozy, and

hoodies, and 

polka dot socks

inside my polka dot 

rain boots.

holidays are coming,

family visits,

fireplaces

and apple cider.

i'm loving

my newfound love

for autumn/winter.

i'm having dinner

with an old friend tonight.

i'm bringing the desert,

which i need to get out 

of the oven now.

my little duck timer

is quacking.