SIX *edit*

rob pointed out that my sixth was missing.

so i fixed it.

don't know what happened there.

six things 

that make me

happy:

1. my baby.

watching the little 

screen, seeing it move, 

watching that 

crazy fast

heartbeat,

trying to imagine

the rest of my life

with this addition-

it's indescribable.

2. my husband.

he's simply amazing to me.

he's my favorite and my best.

i can't believe it's already been

nearly a whole year since

i walked down that isle

to his smiling face,

but needless to say,

it's been the best year

of my life.

3. my family.

i'm so blessed with

the most fun, loving,

supportive, funny, 

awesome family.

and even more blessed 

that i got the same thing

twice over in my in-laws!

a girl just simply could not

ask for better!

4. photography.

i could eat, sleep, 

and breathe photography.

it's my passion, and 

i'm so lucky to get to 

do something i love for a living!

5. discovering new music.

i love music. 

period. 

classical, jazz, 

rock, folk, 

alt, almost everything.

i always get so excited

when i find new music

that i love.

6. Broadway.

I love musicals. 

going to them,

singing along with them,

soundtracks,

seth rudesky on

sirius 77 broadway's best.

musicals made into movies.

West Side Story is my favorite.

I've seen it about a thousand times

and still cry at the end.

I know every word and song .

If only I could sing and dance.

In the privacy of my home,

I can ;)

when you're a jet

you're a jet all the way.

(even tho i secretly want 

to be a shark instead) ;)

there are so many more,

but that will have 

to do for now.

I'll tag 

Cassie

and

Annie

the longest 3 minutes

3 minutes

that's how

long

i sat on the floor

of my bathroom

holding my breath,

biting my nail,

waiting for,

staring at and 

simultaneously 

trying to ignore

this:

then i cried, 

then i smiled,

then i cried again,

then i thought, 

'well, i don't know,

i should take another one'...

then i took 4 more.

and they all 

said the same thing:

"your life will 

never be the same".

rob was shocked

but thrilled,

which made me feel 

much better.

but i was still 

completely terrified. 

this wasn't the plan.

i wasn't ready.

what about south africa

in the spring.

i don't think

i can do this...

and then rob and i

sat in the little dark room,

looking at the screen,

watching our baby's 

heart beating,

and i was sold.

still terrifed,

but at the same time,

so excited, 

and so blessed.

i'm so glad

i'm going on this

crazy adventure 

with my best friend.

i think he's going to be 

a great dad.